Oh what an amazing God we serve! I am STILL blown away by the loving kindness he showed us on Monday (the most emotionally charged day of my life).
It has indeed been a whirlwind of an adventure but the Lord has showed up over and over again to remind us that HE is mighty and HE controls even the strongest wind.
His swiftness to respond to my cries for mercy and peace in my heart reminds me of the story in the Gospels where the disciples are out at sea with Jesus and a storm arises. Jesus was asleep in the boat and the disciples (like me) were FREAKING OUT. Everything looked and felt out of control; the water was coming in the ship. There was nothing they could do to stop it. After enough fruitless freak out the disciples ran to wake Jesus.
And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. Mark 4:39
There was no part in that story where Jesus was not in command of the wind. He allowed it to blow- until the moment he told it to stop.
Neither is there any part of our adoption journey where Jesus has not been in complete command. He has allowed the wind to blow- both opening and closing doors. He has moved in HIS church to rally around our family. He has shown us financial provision and given us opportunities to share what the Lord is doing with strangers and friends alike. He has shown us that he will give us the faith and courage we need to face uncertainty.
We pray that the Lord will give us faith and we will not fear as the journey continues. Amen!
We had a conference call with our attorney today. The conversation was difficult as there is some legal risk involved- risk which details unfortunately we cannot share. After the conversation both Niles and I felt sobered but determined to follow the Lord wherever he leads.
We both still feel a strong desire to proceed with the birthmother that has chose us (We will call her "L")... but we have committed this weekend to seeking the Lord to confirm His desire. Please pray for us. Pray for the Lord to give us faithful discernment to hear his voice. Pray that our decision would not be based on convenience or ease but instead on the Lord's leading. Please pray that our desire aligns with his and that he will receive all the glory! Thank you!